Talking about moments

Joyous moments, you wish to remain in forever

Sad moments, you just wish to have not existed

Horrible moments, you wish to have died instead

Tensed moments, you want to come out just breathing

Here is a moment not happy, sad or tensed

A feeling of stupidity, embarrassment, so very silly

A moment that never should have happened

But it did cuz of stupidity, silliness and carelessness

Oh i just cannot explain 

Pausing for a while

There’s been a little too much of an ache,

 Joyous, laughter and happiness

 A mixture of bit everything, thinking of past and now

Life does change every next minute

Knowing the uncertainty of our existence

We all do still smile, the one fascination

Perhaps acceptance is the only choice

This journey is one time and inevitable

Sleep when you want to, eat and relax

Do things you love doing, never out of compulsion

Never under pressure or pretentions

Don’t smile if you dislike and that ‘s okay

Be true, above everyone, to yourself

Grab the moment and be happy if you have a reason

Cuz tomorrow can be hazardous

Everything but the body is uncertain

Love the ones who care about you

Let go the haters cuz thats the only peace

Stop chasing the one who’s already in a race.

Don’t over work; just like the wealth,

Certificates and trophies will remain behind

But of course show the world what you are made of

love you

You are far far away and i miss u so bad :(

I hear u on the line and i cannot hold back my tears anymore

U say ‘ i love u’ and i drop a tear

It hurts so bad honey cuz i want to be with u

My heart breaks every time i feel the days i have to wait

This again is the joy in me and i smile to the thought u being mine

Even if it takes forever, even if it means nothing in the end

I will wait, wait till the last breath..just to be near u once

with all my heart i say, i love u :)


Orginal post on facebook:
Tuesday, June 8, 2010 at 2:35am

happy birthday

without this day..there never would have been you..

and without u, there never would have been love for me..

without your love, i never would have known love

and without love, i never would have known this joy

and the beauty at this side of the life 

:) thank you for making me feel special in so many different ways

it doesnt come in words to describe my feelings

so i am letting it be just as smiple I LOVE YOU

happy birthday love..love you alyz muaah

miss u alyz :D

Orginal post on fabcebook:

by Lotey Om on Thursday, November 25, 2010 at 4:45pm

Infected

this un-rested mind of mine

late night thoughts..sailing backwards

i'm a little disappointed..

with the people around, about myself 

ain't sure at this time..sick environmentally, 

attitude around, i feel dumb..

lies, rumours and gossips,

about me, about others..its no different

by me, by others or to me

i wanna take break..holding on my grip

i want to feel beautiful..mental

and physically :)

PS: original post on facebook

by Lotey Om on Friday, January 14, 2011 at 8:49pm

Yesterday

Missing all my yesterdays

All those smiles, laughter, frustration

Days of an ordinary girl, simple dreams

Silent nights, day dreams and sound sleep

Every day was a day of joy  

Every next day, a day of new hopes

Of challenges and opportunity, of growing up

Today has changed a little and everything

Desires and dreams become a faraway talk

All that is left in today, is just a hope

In the dark

photo via google 

Unclear sky, unclear path

Have i lost my way? I certainly did..

In the middle of nowhere

Ocean, forest or a city

Damn! It’s so blur, what’s in front?

Why is it so dark? Can’t spot a thing

How now? I’m weightless

And the wind, hitting me with such force

I’m blown, floating like a feather

Ohh no, falling down now..

Gosh! It’s a cliff so high

What’s that noise? Too loud and too near

God save me, i won’t make it

What now? This music, it’s so real

Damn alarm! thankyou god

...and its raining outside

Dream a dream

photo via google

i'm now with the truth

to be frank,i do not know

i see nothing in front

looking back i hear only silence

where do i turn? i'm lost

emptiness all around

might even fall, loneliness inside

tougher it seems then ever

never been the feet so cold

close my eye and i hear u call

so then m blown away

in a faraway land i land

and so i dream a dream

before you leave

Summer 2010,Armidale Australia
(myself in the pic)

it is the heart so fragile..when you say;

its someone else..i feel left out

baby please dont leave me here

this place is so dark and i am scared


there's still few more words i wanna say

may be i'm lost but you are the one

may be i'm unfit but baby u should know

you are the one i love..yes you are


sing it one more time, you see me in the blue sky

that you aren't sad even when the sky is clouded

i'll be exactly at the place you left me

if you decide ever to turn back..i'll wait


cuz baby..

you are the one i miss..yes you are! the only one i love

Away

April 2009, me at Coff Hohour, NSW Australia

Until this day, it was difficult breathing

Today i found the place and it’s so peaceful here

I’m away, leaving everything behind

The world in front is only of peace

The one abandoned, mixture of moments

And turning back i smile cuz all you friends

I still see loving as ever! Forgotten fortunes

I still cherish. Seeking comfort for the lost

I never did loose. Singing for the one i love

Innocence drifts away, leaving behind only smile.

On a cold day

its a cold day yet again..once upon a time i remember
 
on a day similar to this, along the street towards school
 
season of autumn it was, never had the autumn been beautiful
 
as on the day when i spotted you, silent and bold, held with good looks
 
you smiled, not to every one, i whispered to my best friend
 
and a glance towards you with a smile of admiration
 
thats when i was caught, accident i pretended it was

that very moment, a smile you gave and still today i remember
 
whoa! what a smile that was :)

Of fate

My 23rd Bday present from Kazi
(photo by Jambay)

The one adored turned away, saying;

’ you a good friend of mine, I’m sorry’

Trouble it was, to force a smile and the fate so bitter

Yet, only the ones destined to meet get together

The ones who were not, are yet to find theirs

For there is something true about this untrue living

And it doesn’t matter how true our love is

Nothing ever happens, beyond what’s by fate

Fate we blame, still, living itself is just another fate

Along the country road

Year of 2010, on the evening of 7th March

A lonely walk along the lonely road

Few people were on the street

Lovers hand in hand, joggers sweating

And a lonely girl lost in her thought

Quite evening it seemed and the trees waved

She smiled for she understood nature’s talk

A girl child dancing among the fallen leaves

A true smile she wore and a real happiness

For she doesn’t know the world yet

The sun set with a promise so certain

To come up again in the morning

Cheerful as ever and with rays of hope

To bestow on all races with no fondness

Secret to its beautiful setting time

A car went north and a car left north

Alongside the road, few looked impatient

As they wait, to cut the road short

Some towards east and some towards west

How different each of our destinies is?

A mistake made

For it is a lover’s heart you broke 

And a friend’s trust you betrayed

So now, it’s a woman’s heart that’s answering

And a mother’s heart you are dealing with.

 Also, a lover’s revenge cruel than an enemy’s

And a friend’s challenge tougher than a rival’s

Cuz for some, a mistake is a mistake forever

And, any suffering, never enough a punishment

The world indeed, is unfair by itself

And in every sense, at some point in life, we realize

Whats blue got to do with me?

blue and green are my color with reasons not known.

blue is amazing when in the form of tides.
comfort at times of disappointment,
a gifted miracle in the ocean herself!
though the currents can be harsh at times,
blue are waves that link sky to the ocean.
and when the blue fades, thunder roars,
so as to drive away the clouds,
giving the sky a crystal blue look.

out of the blue you came,
willing to take in all my blues.
saw you in blue today..waoo!
incredible how you look in blue,
something just more than a coincidence.
blue suits you well, you looked cute,
handsome sa :) lolz all the more reason,
so as to why blue? out of many!

this feeling in me

You are the one, I can feel
This feeling in me like never before
Where is the voice in me?
Oh my lips! Its become dry
May be the feeling is real
For I hide my stare before you
Still look at you more.

Indeed a fortunate, you feel the same.
How I wish you were near
Hold you once and call mine forever.
Words aren’t clear, I am missing you.


It’s almost dawn, I need to sleep
I love you Kinzang! Easier to write
But I am glad I said it.
Hold me tight when we meet
Do miss me and before I sleep
Wish you, have a goodnight.

It wasn't real

I know..yes i do baby at least now that i have come this far
It was all just a hallucination in me..
When i thought u missed me, it wasn’t real..yes i know
i realized the disorder in me and this stupid dj reminds it all


But baby..
i cry not for the things that didn’t happen
I long for the days we shared..
Words i spoke, i don’t regret
Even now when i know it was all stupid
Baby no, its not the regret..its the destiny that haunts


You never loved me..oh how i wish you cared
its the faith i am blaming cuz never will i want to blame you
even the lord knows, it ain’t my fault either
with days passing, i only see the distance increasing between us


oh yeah..yeah..ummmm the distance
and i know you wouldn’t care the least
ummm ohhh u’mm


But baby..
i cry not for the things that didn’t happen
I long for the days we shared..
Words i spoke, i don’t regret
Even when now i know it was all stupid
Baby no, its not the regret..its the destiny that haunts